My poor wife. It’s been a tough go for her so far. I can only imagine what she is going through. He world was flipped upside down and inside out. She must be scared. But she’s being strong and taking care of business. I understand her anger as well. But after reading her previous post, I feel the need to say this…
I choose to not ignore the elephant in my room. I have cancer. Plain and simple. I don’t have a problem telling people or joking about it. It is what it is and we can’t ignore reality. We can only face it. And I’d rather face it with a smile on my face (but not so much in the hospital…more about that later).
My best friend sent me a text a while back and I laughed my ass off when I got it. We ride the same wave of humour. It was timely and effective. It reminded me that I am strong and can beat this. I appreciate that kind of humour. I love that guy. Not in a a gay way, just normal bro stuff. Not that there is anything wrong with being gay. Lol. I hope he doesn’t mind, but I’m going to post a screen shot of it.
And here was my response…
Sick sense of humour? Gallows humour? Yup that’s me. I would rather look my enemy in the face and laugh, than turn away in fear. I don’t want anyone to feel uncomfortable around me or more importantly, sorry for me. There is nothing more depressing to me. It actually makes me doubt a favourable outcome.
So make no mistake, I have cancer. I know it and you know it. And since I’m in this fight, I’m in it to win it. If you can’t stand in my corner cheering, then go wait outside until it’s over.
Ben (that guy with cancer)