It’s Been Awhile…

Well apparently it’s been awhile since I’ve blogged. Wendy keeps bugging the shit out of me, and I keep findIng every reason not to blog. Why? It’s complicated. The straight-forward answer is that I couldn’t think of anything positive to blog about.

My visits to the BC Cancer Agency only serve to re-enforce my suspicions that by this time next year I’ll be nothing but a memory to everyone. A fond one perhaps, but only a memory. Don’t get me wrong, the people at the BCCA are very kind and helpful but they still leave me with the feeling that I’m going to die. And because of that, I haven’t been feeling very upbeat and positive.

That and the fact that I did a little googling on my very own Collecting Duct Carcinoma and found nothing but shit news. I won’t get into the details but I couldn’t find anything that led me to believe I will pull out of this. So I am doing my best not to think of cancer, and only thinking about making the best of the days in front of me.

So that’s where I’m at. No more pom-poms, false cheers or brave words in the face of this fucking thing. Just me and my disease (that could be a cool song title). I don’t know what else to do. This blog post isn’t designed to cause depression…I think I have chemo brain. My brain just doesn’t seem to work. Normally witty things just come to me but there seems to be some kind of roadblock happening. Anyways…on to bigger and better things.

Tomorrow night I am taking Raegan to the Dave Matthews concert here in Vancouver. I’ve been wanting to see him for years. I used to be a bigger fan but that seems to have faded somewhat. I still like his music but maybe five years ago may have been better timing. Anyways, we will enjoy it together. I’m looking forward to it.

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On September 11 Zach and I will be going to see the Foo Fighters. My very favourite band. If I ever grow up, I want to grow up to be Dave Grohl. What a guy. I love the energy of that band. Some may say that I am too old to like the Foo Fighters, to that I say “Go Fuck Yourself”. I love those guys. Period. We are both really looking forward to the show. Should be awesome.

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And the big surprise is…On September 24 my bride is taking me to see one of my favourite artists ever…Doyle Bramhall II. Yup, I know. No one knows who he is right? Right. Well I do, and I think he is awesome. Google him, he has a decent resume. He and Charlie Sexton formed the Arc Angels in 1990 and had a few hits on the blues rock charts. He then went solo in 1996 with his self-titled album Doyle Bramhall II. Then in 1999 he released Jellycream. Then released a follow-up album Welcome in 2001. Since then he has been working as a gun for hire and has quite a few big names on his resume: he has toured with Roger Waters (Pink Floyd), Eric Clapton and a host of other artists. Anyways, he is playing at a small venue called the El Rey Theatre in LA. We are flying down on the 23rd, catching the show on the 24th and flying back the next day.

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Wendy LOVES his hair. I do too actually. If I only had hair…

I had been following his events calendar for some time and was considering flying down to Texas and catching one of his shows in Austin. But with three kids and a mortgage it was hard to justify a trip like that. But with Cancer – what the hell!! Can’t wait!!!

Wendy tells me that she’s been in touch with the man himself. I’m looking forward to seeing if anything comes of this contact. I’m hoping to meet him. We’ll see. I don’t know exactly what I would say to him but…it would be cool.

Anyways, I think I’m done with this post. I may be back again…We’ll see.

27 thoughts on “It’s Been Awhile…

  1. No one knows what you are going through Ben or would dare to judge your thinking.You are a brave Man, so live it big, like we all should. Enjoy the music and your awesome family! I will look up that artist now that you say he is great…thanks for sharing as always

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  2. 1) NEVER Google
    2) The POG trial is where its at. If you lose hope I will literally kick your ass
    3) We need you. So shut up and do your job which is very simply to stay positive.
    4) CHeemo-The-Rapey did not take away your ability to be witty. You were never very funny. hahahaha. (now THAT was funny!)
    5) You forgot to mention that the 24th is our anniversary. The truth is that I contacted Doyle Bramhall because it will be cool to be in the same room with his hair on our TWENTY FIRST ANNIVERSARY. You nit wit.
    6) I’m going to yoga now. Be waiting in the doorway naked when I return home. 😉

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  3. Ben, that’s awesome that you’re going to those great concerts. I remember going to the Foo Fighters with you at the Orpheum a couple years back. What an awesome band and a great night of music. Thanks for inviting me back then.

    Not sure if you’re keeping up with the UFC but it would be great to get together for an evening of fights. Let me know when you’re feeling up to it.

    To a good friend and an awesome father. Cheers my friend.

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    • Kevin. I find it disturbing that you have replaced your memory of Shelley at the Foo Fighters concert with me. Lol. We went to see Kenny Wayne Shepherd at the Commodore (Shelley was there too). You and Shelley went to see the Foo Fighters at the Commodore. I was just envious but nowhere to be seen.

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      • That is really messed up. Seriously? I went with my Ex and not you? But I still think you’ve got the venue wrong. Kenny Wayne Shepherd was at the Commodore but Foo Fighters was at the Orpheum. I’ts official my memory is failing me 😦

        Please tell me it was you and not my Ex who used to watch the UFC fights. Or that would really be fucking messed up!

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  4. Good to see/read your post!! Geeze, Wendy’s a fire cracker….wanting u naked in the doorway! She keeps that up u may have a new baby growing before ur anniversary 😖
    Enjoy the concerts, sounds like a lot of fun!! Most importantly….listen to your wife 😜!!! Lol!
    You are all in my thoughts and prayers!!

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  5. Ben, if you know what’s good for you, do what Wendy says!!! CHemo-TERROR-PEE did not take your wit or your brain or your hair, that’s for sure. That Doyle dude has enough hair for 10 CHemo-TERROR-PEE recipients so maybe he can donate when you see him. What a wonderful weekend away you guys have planned. Dave Mathews TONIGHT!! Maybe we will bump into you there tonight. We are in section 118, row 16.
    Stay positive friend. Don’t make me bring out my pom poms. And Wendy, don’t ever change. :0)

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  6. Stay positive little bro, I agree with all of Wendy’s points that she made.have a great time at the concert with Reagan tonight😀 so glad you are living it up and seeing all these great concerts . You love music and should relish it when the opportunity is there. I can’t wait to see pictures, especially when you go to L.A. For the guy with the big hair. I have to look him up and check out his music. Miss ya❤️❤️

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