Yesterday I wrote a blog post about how those in the know may be right …. it is clearly possible that year Deux may in fact be harder than year One. I suspect this is in part because year One is just so busy that it is over in the blink of an eye. Everything happens in year One, and if you aren’t busy sobbing your eyes out you are exhausted and knocked out from sleeping pills. Year One is jam packed.
Year two seems to be just … quiet. Like everyone has gone home from the party and I am left picking up the dirty dishes alone. It’s not a lot of fun so far but I am still holding out some hope for positive change. It seems that I have to either quit or figure out how to move forward. I’ve never been much of a quitter.
After I wrote that last post I found myself surprisingly unsatisfied, so I deleted it. I believe that is at least the second time recently that I have deleted a post.
The whole point of writing this blog is because I have always found it to be cathartic but suddenly I do not. And when something starts to feel like a chore it’s probably a sign that it’s over.
I don’t know if I’ll write on here again. I’m going to stay non committal for now. Pity really, because I just paid for the next year up front. Maybe in the future I will come back on here to explore a new topic. There are certainly big changes coming in 2017, but for now they just feel private.
So long for now. It’s been quite a ride.